Shattered, devastated, Nimisha sat at the corner of her bedroom. Her beautiful brown eyes had become puffy and red of crying for hours. Her books and papers lay scattered across the room, books which had not been touched for days because she was not able to concentrate. She had her phone in her hand, eagerly waiting for one msg from Shekhar- her boyfriend or maybe now her ex. Nimisha had called and messaged him a hundred times, saying sorry, even though it wasn’t her mistake. Waiting for him to take her back into his life. Nimisha and Shekhar had been in a relationship for over two years, they were the best couple in school. Though, it was a toxic relationship. But she didn’t realize it, cause she was so madly in love with him, he made her feel like the prettiest girl on the planet. For her, it was all sweet and heavenly, even though she always took the first step. He never did anything. Still she felt, he did more than she could ask for. Last week, Nimisha had caught him cheating on her with some other girl. She was so heart broken and traumatized. They had a big fight and broke up. But it had not been even two days, and Nimisha was again calling and messaging him, saying sorry. She felt it was her mistake, that she got too harsh on him, he deserved another chance. After all, Shekhar loved her a lot. He made her feel so special, so loved. He meant the world to her. She couldn’t live without him, they were the perfect couple.
Stop running after people. Stop being the one who always takes the first step. The one who always calls first, messages first, says sorry first. Stop being the one who always cares more. In every friendship, every relationship, stop putting in all the effort. Sometimes, you just need to sit back and relax. Not chase people. Sometimes, you need to see your worth. Do you really mean something to others? Or no, you are just another pass time. Another toy, with which they’ll play and throw away. I know it’s difficult, to sit back and wait. Being the nicer person, you feel everything you do is less. Sometimes we need that particular person so much, we do everything we can to make them stay, even if it means destroying ourselves in the process. We feel we cannot live without him, that person means the world to us, but sometimes, that person is the stopping stone in our journey. Not everyone in our life comes as a blessing, some come as a lesson. Some don’t deserve our love and care. I know it’s difficult, to sit back and wait. But sometimes it’s the right thing to do and the only thing you can do. You have done everything you could, but now it’s time to see if the other person is really worth your time and energy. If the other person really believes in your friendship as much as you do. Whether the other person really realizes your presence in their life. People say- give and don’t except anything in return. But sometimes, when you give a person your everything, you start to expect a little. You want to feel wanted, special and loved. And that’s not wrong, that’s human nature. That’s science also – every action has an equal and opposite reaction, isn’t it? So don’t always be the person doing everything, cause everyone just doesn’t deserve your time, your energy, your love, most importantly- YOU. But a few people deserve it, deserve it completely. So wait for these few beautiful and amazing people to come in your life and make it worth living. Stop running after people, the ones who truly belong in your life will come, and stay.
Learn to love yourself. Take out time for yourself, take yourself out on a date, make food for yourself, take care and nurture yourself. If we start loving ourselves the way we are, we won’t really need anyone else.
To all my wonderful readers,
Thank you so much for taking time out and reading this.
I hope you all realize your worth and never let anyone take it.
P.S:- It was my first attempt at writing a short story at the beginning. All your valuable views and suggestions are most welcome.